Looking back in time I can see now clear that For many years I was struggling to figure out things that wasn’t making sense to me ,the Negative Patterns of Behaviors, Struggling to belong to a place or within my own family, struggled to fit in, To be accepted, not being able to have a solid relationship, which led to me raising my 3 children on my own. I was seen as a freak within the society that we was living and so was my mom considered as she was a very gifted woman, and at that time I took it as a normal thing, but when I had my children I could feel the rejection from the society, and the abundance of Love from my Mother to my daughters.
The last few days is coming more and more to my mind the period before she passed away when she was having epileptic seizures , and I was calling the ambulance she was taken to the Psychiatric Hospital in our town and was treated as a mad woman, tied to bed , pumped with tranquilizers and she was given very heavy drugs like Carbamazepine by Doctor Paziuc which I took on the decision to stop them, which caused all my sisters to turn against me , but they wasn’t there living with us, they was just making assumptions and presumptions. She was sleeping for over 24 hours and she was experiencing memory loss and she couldn’t remember who she was, she become paranoid, Aggressive, she was like walking dead and we decided both of us to work with natural remedies and worked wonders, as what was going on with her after them tablets was completely opposite of everything you would imagine, in a negative way.
She was able to read people, to feel things and see things before happening, very accurate, but for the society that’s unacceptable. We really enjoyed when we was reading things in the coffee to test our skills, great memories.
Myself Being gifted with many skills and abilities since coming into this world without learning them ,was a struggle constantly , and my father was the one who was able to see through that I was completely different than all my other sisters , it was so visible at all times , the ways I was doing things , the way I was perceiving them and my connection with the World outside, I was like the main pea in a pod which brought lots of negative things towards myself from my sisters, the mother of my father and some people around, including the priest Dragos from our church who was calling me the Devil and so was a Neighbor who the minute I was entering the church he was on my back like a Hawk for it’s pray.
There was many things that I never learned them , born with them, passed on from generation to generation, from my mother and father , and so on from their ancestors before them, and i still remember that my Father since early age until he’s passing when I was 11 years of age he taught me how to connect with the nature , how to find a place of refuge, how world world works I still remember at 6-7 years of age when we both went into the Mountains for foraging, teaching me how to make quiet in the mind and just focus, for all to slow down, was a great skill to have as helped a lot when he passed away peacefully in front of me, he was preparing me for life.
At times it did felt like all that was coming my way was part of life that that’s the way life is, it felt natural , and so many other things that took me many years to understand them and to see them from a different Perspectives.
What was really Going on ?
All was brought to surface in the years 2021 after a massive accident when while cycling home got hit by a minibus taxi who was coming from behind at full speed and he did hit me on the right side, got thrown on my left side with the bike and all, bike damaged completely, which end up in the bin afterwards.
Finally on 27th of August 2021 it all started to make sense when I started to Attend the Transforming DNA Memories course that was taught by Sylvia Marina from the other end of the World Nu Tireni – Aotearoa ( New Zealand) at the Suggestion of My Kinesiology Teacher at that time Ger Casey with who I was speaking I don’t remember if I called or she called first after the accident as I had the accident 2 weeks before I was supposed to have the final exams to qualify as a kinesiologist, and I remember saying to her not long after the accident that I don’t remember anything and I need time to relearn the kinesiology protocols and that might take time. I was Barely Functioning and in my lucid moments I was able to talk with people and do things. At that time there was already 4 months into my recovery from the accident from 14th April the same year and Ger was explaining how it might help me to heal and deal different with the recovery and the situation created around me, that I was living, and why it is important for me Transforming DNA Memories course.
Until then , I used all sorts of therapies , physiotherapy, kinesiology, concussion and trauma therapy, outdoor therapy, Psychotherapy, hypnosis, Dry Needling , Iridology, herbalism , literally everything I could avail of at my own expense just to able to sleep, to stop the nightmares of being hit over and over again, to try to get my memory back , to be able to calm my thoughts , my unbearable pains, horrible migraines that was isolating me from the world outside and so much more .
Looking back what a rollercoaster!
I wasn’t able to put a name to what was going on , what I was living, why I was having so much emotions, why I was so bad struggling it wasn’t making sense at all how come I was doing so many sorts of recovery therapies, physical , emotional and still feeling that i couldn’t completely recover to move on.
At that time was the period when many countries was locked down due to a Created Pandemic Globally and all the courses , education went suddenly on-line and so I did, it was great because I didn’t need to face the world , to travel , to be in a class setting, I was hiding my pain , behind a monitor, I felt safe in my own room and i was able to focus on myself.
There was so many things that I was experiencing and I was struggling to make sense of what every day was bringing, day in and day out.
Having a night sleep was the main struggle because of the mad nightmares, waking up screaming , jumping from bed , the paranoia , the guilt the driver was throwing on me and I was only passing out asleep after my Psychotherapy with John Prendergast when I was coming home very calm and I was able to sit with my children and talk for few minutes, as they was tired of me asking the same question 10 times , or not being able to hear them or making sense of what they was saying , i was struggling even to be present in a room with them , without panicking or being triggered and I could feel the positive impact it had every time when we was clearing more and more trauma , and more was coming to surface like I had a huge storage from where someone or something was throwing it out constantly after things was cleared.
What a period!
I was travelling to Athlone to see John for my Appointments and it was taking for me a whole day to go and come back for one hour therapy just to be able to heal and sleep at night and deal with my nightmares, PTSD, panic attacks and anxiety for which I am very Grateful even today, very well skilled psychotherapist, who is able to provide with skills and knowledge even when your not in the session to manage emotions and prevent episodes. Hugely Important, All my respect and gratitude to John.
Photo is taken in 2019, when i attended the SUCCESFUL THERAPIST Masterclass, 2 years prior to the Accident, when I Said to John Prendergast:
I will Ring you when i will hit he rock bottom!
Not Realising that two years later I will.
I found this Physiotherapist on Google and decided might help with my reduced mobility and so it did.
The IFSC Richard Doddy Physiotherapy , a very good physiotherapist , the dry needling worked wonders and the exercises even if they was very uncomfortable, they was giving me physical relief, as I was struggling to bring my right hand to my mouth at times to eat, my back was frozen and my right shoulder was very tender, physical pain for the first months was unbearable, worse than labor and I couldn’t sleep just in one side which was not good at all.
I am very grateful, To Richard a very skilled physiotherapist, who truly understands the depth of trauma and concussions, and how essential recovery is in situations like this, and being humble to say after he did tried everything , which it did work great for me , that I could benefit from further support for the next step of the journey, which was so important, and he did referred me to Sports Surgery Clinic Santry. The right skills , knowledge and selflessness , which is very rare to meet in the therapy world.
I still remember when he said I was the worse case of Brain Concussion he had ever seen until that day and it did really shook him , I had no light in my eyes, basically a walking dead, I was numb to emotions, I felt dead for many months, empty inside with just one thing in my mind to make it through to see my children growing, to be beside them, I was like a robot.
DRY NEEDLING DONE BY Don Wardo from Irish STRENGTH INSITITUDE TO WHOM I Am VERY GRATEFULL, was the INSTANT PAIN RELIEF THAT HELPED AT TIMES WITH THE FROZEN SHOULDER between my other recovery programms and therapies.
He went above and beyond to even educate my children on what was happening to me, as for them and everyone around me , even for me nothing was making sense, no broken bones but such a huge damage. When he discharged me he referred me further to More specialists from Sports Surgery Clinic and at the start I Was seen by a neurologist, who had assessed me and together with a concussion specialist and a personal trainer they did put together programs for me integrate back in society , learn how to coordinate my hands and my legs, How to improve my eyes , as i was struggling to see with my right eye , how to reduce the numbness on my right face, how to put things together and to integrate the emotional therapy I was doing with the physical therapy to be able to get back to a normal life.
The Concussion specialist from Sports Surgery Clinic did play a huge role in integrating all my psychotherapy, Physiotherapy , the emotional aspect all together, as i was working with so many specialists not just John and Richard , and it was hard to put things together as all had their own role to the whole picture, putting wall together was hard and something i thought impossible at the time, I was listening, I think his name was Colum , ( I’m sorry I don’t remember his name) but after a full session is started to make sense, took weeks to figure things out, which further down the line brought me when I started developing Halcyon Health Services to create my own Unique approach to trauma/ recovery and to build something completely different , unique.
There been Months of Rehab to build strength on my right leg and right arm as shoulder was very sore, to be able to have body balance, to coordinate, to be able to do simple things which at that time there was looking as very hard tasks, what a journey it had been .
The interesting part that the year before i did qualify as personal trainer and nutritional advisor, but my body wasn’t able to work on self, as body will self preserve and after the accident I was constant in fight /flight.
At times i was going through my recovery plans and looking at my notes to try to remember things from when I did the course for PT and it did help.
Many times i was wondering :
How Much One’s Health and Well being is worth? As i have friend who few years back he had a similar accident and he did refuse to use his own money to do recovery and therapy, and i was constantly nagging him about it, and still by today he never recovered because he found more important to buy an apartment back home than focus on his own recovery.
I tell You: Priceless for me !
Nothing Compares With a great Night Sleep.
In 2012 while I was in Christian Church, while there was Pastors from around world preaching , closed my eyes and I could see This Woman , with the face and body facing / looking at a very nice azure blue sea , with a weaved basket in her arms , a lovely blue dress with azure and royal blue, her curly hair and a lovely flower above her ear, which few years back I found out is called frangipani, and the reason I mention it , because when I first logged in to attend the Course Transforming DNA Memories through Zoom I Froze.
The woman was Sylvia Marina the author and facilitator of the Course Transforming DNA Memories . I did Froze.
How you would explain that?
She asked me who I am and few other things, I remember i said : I don’t know.
In a very gentle voice she said : It’s okay.
And I said: I have seen you before in my vision in 2012, and i did explain how she looked and dressed , she was smiling from a ear to another .
I could read the other ladies from around the world who they were and some of their connections with world around, was interesting, and there I was , not knowing who I was and i felt was right for me.
Every day of the course was bringing more and more clearance, i was feeling good, I was finally finding peace of mind, I was Understood, It was just me. Which for me was a breakthrough.
My children seen a huge change in every day of the Course, in the 4th day I went to work with my Daughter, we was both working while I was still on the course and when Sylvia did close off with a Meditation the 4 days, Myself and My Daughter , sat on a sofa with my phone between us and in 2 minutes in the meditation we was gone with the fairies.
Was Wow!
After i did finish the 4 days Course of Transforming DNA, Memories My life started to change , I was able to use the Protocols taught by Sylvia through the 4 days, by Myself for Myself. The impact it had on me , impacted indirectly my children, life started to be different, healing with y family was happening, not just my children , on my sisters and the nieces and nephews.
So Powerful!
Life started to make gradually sense again ,Identifying the intergenerational traumas became like a detective work i day to day life and I love it , not just for myself and my family even for my clients and people i work with.
Last year when Sylvia had travel from Nu Tireni – Aotearoa (New Zealand)to Ireland I was privileged to avail of a small piece of her golden Knowledge and become Facilitator for teaching Transforming DNA Memories.
The main reason behind me getting qualified was the proof of the impact it had and it still have on my own life and my recovery.
Last year long after I Got Qualified I had my first students completing the 4 days Course from Which one is My Daughter Ioana.
The more and more I Heal the more positive Impact is seen on the people around me , not just me .
Me on 16th of March 2025- at 3 years and 11 months since the Accident
When things are coming to surface is necessary for us to deal with them to heal from them.
While Healing noticeable changes started to be present in my children too, on our habits , behaviors and gradually coming back to myself, even to today a big chunk of my memory never recovered, still wiped away and that ok, as that made place for me to become a sponge for knowledge and discover my True Self and to learn new skills to fulfill my purpose on Earth.
Looking back when I started Healing the Intergenerational trauma My Own Future got Reshaped, and I remembered the ability to Access and Unlock My Entelechy, and the Hidden Wisdom of the Ancestors, Being my true self.
The Professional Protocols Created by Sylvia Marina that I use myself in the clinic setting , On myself and family are used Around the World, and impacted life of millions of people from all walks of life.
“When You Heal Yourself, Everyone Around You Heals with You”
Sylvia Marina,
Lady Dean of International Personal Development School and Elder of Mauri Tribe in Nu Tireni -Aotearoa.
How Much is The Peace of mind and Health worth for You ?
