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The Impact Transforming DNA Memories have in my life

Looking back in time I can see now clear that For many years I was  struggling to figure out things that wasn’t making sense to me ,the  Negative Patterns of Behaviors, Struggling to belong to a place or within my own family, struggled to fit in, To be accepted, not being able to have a solid relationship, which led to me raising my 3 children on my own. I was  seen as a freak within the society that we  was living and so was my mom considered as she was a very gifted woman, and at that time I took it as a normal thing, but when I had my children I could feel the rejection from the society, and the abundance of Love from my Mother to my daughters.

The last few days is coming more and more to my mind the period before she passed away when she was having epileptic seizures , and I was calling the ambulance  she was taken to the Psychiatric Hospital in our town and was treated as a mad woman, tied to bed , pumped with tranquilizers and she was given very heavy drugs like Carbamazepine by Doctor Paziuc which I took on the decision to stop them, which caused all my sisters to turn against me , but they wasn’t there living with us, they was just making assumptions and presumptions.  She was sleeping for over 24 hours and she was experiencing memory loss and she couldn’t remember who she was, she become paranoid, Aggressive,   she was like walking dead and we decided both of us to work with  natural remedies and worked wonders, as what  was going on with her after them tablets was completely opposite of everything you would imagine, in a negative way.

She was able to read people, to feel things and see things before happening, very accurate, but for the society that’s unacceptable. We really enjoyed when we was reading things in the coffee to test our skills, great memories.

Myself Being gifted with  many skills and abilities since coming into this world without learning them ,was a struggle constantly , and my father was the one who was able to see through  that I  was completely different than all my other sisters , it was so visible at all times , the ways I was doing things , the way I  was perceiving them and my connection with the World outside, I was like the main pea in a pod which brought lots of negative things towards myself  from my sisters, the mother  of my father and some people around, including the priest Dragos from our church who was calling me the Devil and so was a Neighbor who the minute I was entering the church he was on my back like a Hawk for it’s pray.

There was many things that I never learned them  , born with them, passed on from generation to generation, from my mother and father , and so on from their  ancestors before them, and i still remember that my Father since early age until he’s passing when I was 11 years of age he taught me how to connect with the nature , how to find a place of refuge, how world world works  I still remember at 6-7 years of age when we both went into the Mountains for foraging, teaching me how to make quiet in the mind and just focus, for all to slow down, was a great skill to have as helped a lot when he passed away peacefully in front of me, he was preparing me for life.

At times it did felt like all that was coming my way was part of life that that’s the way  life is,  it felt natural ,  and so many other things that took me many years to understand them and to see them from a different Perspectives.

What was really Going on ?

All was brought to surface in the years 2021 after a massive accident when while cycling home got hit by a minibus taxi who was coming from behind at full speed and he did hit me on the right side, got thrown on my left side with the bike and all, bike damaged completely, which end up in the bin afterwards.

Finally on 27th of August  2021 it all started to make sense when I started to Attend the Transforming DNA Memories course that was taught by Sylvia Marina from the other end of the World Nu Tireni –  Aotearoa ( New Zealand) at the Suggestion of My Kinesiology Teacher at that time Ger Casey with who I  was speaking I don’t remember if I called or she called first after the accident  as I had the accident 2 weeks before I  was supposed to have the final exams to  qualify as a kinesiologist, and I remember saying to her  not long after the accident that I don’t remember anything and I  need time to relearn the kinesiology protocols and that might take time. I was Barely Functioning and in my lucid moments I was able to talk with people and do things. At that time there was already 4 months into my recovery from the accident from 14th April the same year and  Ger was explaining how it might  help me to heal and deal different with the recovery and the situation created around me, that I was living, and why it is important for me Transforming DNA Memories course.

Until then , I  used all sorts of therapies , physiotherapy, kinesiology, concussion and trauma therapy, outdoor therapy, Psychotherapy, hypnosis, Dry Needling , Iridology, herbalism , literally everything I  could avail of at my own expense just to able to sleep, to stop the nightmares of being hit over and over again,  to try to get my memory back , to be able to calm my thoughts , my unbearable pains, horrible migraines that was isolating me from the world outside and so much more .

Looking back what a rollercoaster!

I wasn’t able to put a name to what  was going on , what I was living, why I was having  so much emotions, why I  was so bad struggling it wasn’t making sense at all how come I was doing so many sorts of recovery therapies, physical , emotional and  still feeling that i couldn’t  completely recover to move on.

At that time was the period when many countries was locked down due to a Created Pandemic Globally and all the courses , education went suddenly on-line and so I did, it was great because I didn’t need to face the world , to travel , to be in a class setting, I  was hiding my pain , behind a monitor, I felt safe in my own room and i was able to focus on myself.

There was so many things that I was experiencing and I was struggling to make sense of what every day was bringing,   day in and day out.

Having a night sleep was the main struggle because of the mad nightmares, waking up screaming , jumping from bed , the paranoia , the guilt the driver was throwing on me and I was only passing out asleep after my Psychotherapy with John Prendergast when I  was coming home very calm and I was able to sit with my children and talk for few minutes, as they was tired of me asking the same question 10 times , or not being able to hear them or making sense of what they was saying , i was struggling even to be present in a room with them ,  without panicking or being triggered and I could feel the positive impact it had every time when we was clearing more and more trauma , and more was coming to surface like I had  a huge storage from where someone or something was throwing it out constantly after things was cleared.

What a period!

I was travelling to Athlone to see John for my Appointments and it was taking for me  a whole day to go and come back for one hour therapy just to be able to heal and sleep at night and deal with my nightmares,  PTSD, panic attacks and anxiety for which I am very Grateful even today, very well skilled psychotherapist, who is able to provide with skills and knowledge even when your not in the session to manage emotions and prevent episodes. Hugely Important, All my respect and gratitude to John.

 

Photo is taken in 2019, when i attended the SUCCESFUL THERAPIST  Masterclass,  2 years prior to the Accident,  when I Said to John Prendergast:
I will Ring you when i will hit he rock bottom!
Not Realising that two years later I will.

 

I found this Physiotherapist on Google and decided might help with my reduced mobility and so it did.

The  IFSC Richard Doddy Physiotherapy  , a very good physiotherapist , the dry needling worked wonders and the exercises even if they was very uncomfortable, they was giving me physical relief, as I was struggling to bring my right hand to my mouth at times to eat, my back was frozen and my right shoulder was very tender, physical pain for the first months was unbearable, worse than labor and I couldn’t sleep just in one side which was not good at all.

 

I am very grateful, To Richard a  very skilled   physiotherapist, who truly understands the depth of trauma and concussions, and how essential recovery is in situations like this, and being humble to say after he did tried everything , which it did work great for me , that I could benefit from further support for the next step of the journey,  which was so important, and he did  referred me  to Sports Surgery Clinic Santry. The right skills , knowledge and selflessness , which is very rare to meet in the therapy world.

I still remember when he said I was the worse case of Brain Concussion he had ever seen until that day and it did really shook him , I had no light in my eyes, basically a walking dead, I was numb to emotions,  I felt dead for many  months, empty inside with just one thing in my mind to make it through to see my children growing, to be beside them, I was like a robot.

 

DRY NEEDLING DONE BY Don Wardo from Irish STRENGTH INSITITUDE TO WHOM I Am  VERY GRATEFULL,  was the  INSTANT PAIN RELIEF THAT HELPED AT TIMES WITH THE FROZEN SHOULDER between my other recovery programms and therapies.

He went above and beyond to even educate my children on what was happening to me, as for them and everyone around me , even for me nothing was making sense, no broken bones but such a huge damage. When he discharged me he referred me further to More specialists from Sports Surgery Clinic and at the start I Was seen by a neurologist, who had assessed me and together with a  concussion specialist and  a  personal trainer they did put together programs for me integrate back in society , learn how to coordinate my hands and my legs, How to improve my eyes , as i was struggling to see with my right eye  , how to reduce   the numbness on my right face, how to put things together and to integrate the emotional therapy I was doing with the physical therapy to be able to get back to a normal life.

The Concussion specialist from Sports Surgery Clinic did play a huge role in integrating all my psychotherapy, Physiotherapy , the emotional aspect all together, as i was working with so many specialists not just John and Richard , and it was hard to put things together as all had their own role to the whole picture, putting wall together was hard and something i thought impossible at the time, I was listening,  I think his name was Colum , ( I’m sorry I don’t remember his name) but after a full session is started to make sense, took weeks to figure things out,  which further down the line brought me when I started developing  Halcyon Health Services to create my own Unique approach to trauma/ recovery and to build something completely different , unique.

 

There been Months of Rehab to build strength on my right  leg and right arm as shoulder was very sore, to be able to have body balance, to coordinate, to be  able to do simple things which at that time there was looking as very hard tasks, what a journey it had been .

The interesting part that the year before i did qualify as personal trainer and nutritional advisor, but my body wasn’t able to work on self, as body will self preserve and after the accident I was  constant in fight /flight.

At times i was going through my recovery plans and looking at my notes to try to remember things from when I  did the course for PT and it did help.

Many times i was wondering :

How Much One’s Health and Well being is worth? As i have friend who few years back he had a similar accident and he did refuse to use his own money to do recovery and therapy, and i was constantly nagging him about it, and still by today he never recovered because he found more important to buy an apartment back home than focus on his own recovery.

I tell You: Priceless for me !

Nothing Compares With a great Night Sleep.

In 2012 while I was in Christian Church, while there was Pastors from around world preaching , closed my eyes and I could see This Woman , with the face and body facing /  looking at  a very nice azure blue sea , with a weaved basket in her arms , a lovely blue dress with azure and royal blue, her curly hair and a lovely flower above her ear, which few years back I found out is called frangipani, and the reason I  mention it , because when I first logged in to attend the Course Transforming DNA Memories through Zoom I  Froze.

The woman was Sylvia Marina the author and facilitator of the Course Transforming DNA Memories . I did Froze.

How you would explain that?

She asked me who I am and few other things, I remember i said : I don’t know.

In a very gentle voice she said : It’s okay.

And I said: I have seen you before in my vision in 2012, and i did explain how she looked and dressed , she was smiling from a ear to another .

I could read the other ladies from around the world who they were and some of their connections with world around, was interesting, and there I was , not knowing who I was and i felt was right for me.

Every day of the course was bringing more and more clearance, i was feeling good, I was finally finding peace of mind, I was Understood, It was just me. Which for me was a breakthrough.

My children seen a huge change in every day of the Course, in the 4th day  I went to work with my Daughter, we was both working while I was still on the course and when Sylvia did close off with a Meditation the 4 days, Myself and My Daughter , sat on a sofa with my phone between us and in 2 minutes in the meditation we was gone with the fairies.

Was Wow!

 

After i did finish the 4 days Course of Transforming DNA,  Memories My life started to change , I was able to use the Protocols  taught by Sylvia through the 4 days, by Myself for Myself. The impact it had on me , impacted indirectly my children, life started to be different, healing with y family was happening, not just my children , on my sisters and the nieces and nephews.

So Powerful!

Life started to make gradually sense again ,Identifying  the intergenerational traumas became like a detective work i day to day life and I love it , not just for myself and my family even for  my clients and people i work with.

Last year when Sylvia had travel from Nu Tireni – Aotearoa (New Zealand)to Ireland I was privileged to avail of a small piece of her golden Knowledge and become Facilitator for teaching Transforming DNA Memories.

The main reason behind me getting qualified was the proof of the impact it had and  it still have on my own life and my recovery.

Last year long after I Got Qualified I had my first students completing the 4 days Course from Which one is My Daughter Ioana.

The more and more I Heal the more positive Impact is   seen on the people around me , not just me .

Me on 16th of March 2025- at 3 years and 11 months since the Accident

 

When things are coming to surface  is necessary for us to deal with them to  heal from them.

While Healing  noticeable  changes started to be present in my children too, on our  habits , behaviors and gradually coming back to myself, even to today a big chunk of my memory never recovered, still wiped away and  that ok, as that made place for me to become a sponge for knowledge and discover my True Self and to learn new skills to fulfill my purpose on Earth.

Looking back when I  started  Healing the Intergenerational trauma  My Own Future got Reshaped, and I remembered the ability to Access and  Unlock My  Entelechy, and the Hidden Wisdom of the Ancestors, Being my true self.

 

The Professional Protocols Created by Sylvia Marina that I use myself in the clinic setting , On  myself and family are used Around the World, and  impacted life of millions of people from all walks of life.

“When You Heal Yourself, Everyone Around You Heals with You”

Sylvia Marina,

Lady Dean of International Personal Development School and Elder of Mauri Tribe in Nu Tireni -Aotearoa.

 

 

How Much is The Peace of mind and Health worth for You ?

 

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A Glimpse into my Life Journey

I am Carmen Jitariuc , proudly mother of 3 beautiful children and i am originary from Bucovina , Romania a very sacred place where Heaven lives on Earth and the Vibration of the Mother Earth heals the wounds of our Ancestors.

I am the Proudly Principal and Founder of Halcyon Health Services and Halcyon Education Services Eire, and the idea came up few years back while   working as a volunteer with orphan children’s and people  with disabilities in Romania, and volunteer with  The Adventure Project Ireland, which is an outdoor activities organisation which was very deep engaged on reducing the crime rates among children in North Inner City Dublin and helping people in recovery from addictions and crime diversion programs taking them  into outdoors helping them with mental health, personal development and to build core values.

Through that period noticeable  visible changes on their behaviour, patterns and personality traits started to be very visible which led to different insights on how things can be developed  to be brought forward and where  can be  make an impact in individuals life.

As mentioned before my origins are going back in the Mountains of Carpati, Romania from a big family of 11 siblings, 3 half sisters and 7 sisters,  being my Father 7th Daughter and coming from a gifted mother who had the gift of seeing and feeling being connected to the Ancient Wisdom of our Ancestors and so was my Father,  and so am I and so is one of my daughters.

Since an early age I  always felt different and never really fit  in because of who  I am.  Since an early age, always on my own, with  just one true friend , I  could sense , see , feel which at that time it was very bad in such society, but I loved being me, called  a witch and I spent most of my years wondering in the mountains with all wild plants learning their benefits, creating remedies that my mother taught me, foraging, selling remedies , wild berries , mushrooms, and gained my own  money as things was though at home.

My mother Lupescu Doina  was a young widow at 47 raising 8 kids on her own, and she was a very strong role model for me in particular, in that time  society called us  poor but we was the richest people, few will understand what that mean, as the true wealth we had wasn’t measured in material things but in the freedom we had.

Since early childhood as  I remember Life started in the Small city of Campulung Moldovenesc, where I had a beautiful joyous life until the age of 11 when my Father passed away, which I counted as a blessing to have him in my life and guiding me through the most important years of life, because   in our culture the most important years of life are the first 7 years of life that  determine the  future in regard to principle and core values.   Until then since early age I was taught by my father the survival skills- how to fish, forage , chop wood, gardening ,growing veg and plants and even communications skills with the elderly of our community and the gipsy community.

One of my sisters had a Godfather who was an elder of the gipsy community which after my father death took up the role of guiding me and supporting me through life until he passed away in November 2010 when I was blessed already with my 3 beautiful children.  Was a solid rock and blessed to have his support, to learn from him and avail of his Wisdom.

The first memories I have of him when we was singing in the hotel Zimbru,  me by voice and him playing his instruments, great memories.  I still remember very clear when my first daughter was born he looked straight in her eyes and said : she is Kali, Kalia, which is a gipsy word, and he loved her straight away he was the grandfather and he was very proud to spend time with my children every time we was meeting or visiting.

Loved  listening to him while singing his pain away, he thought me how to take things as they come, he had a hard time, after he buried his 4 sons, this was  – Zaim Petru a guardian on earth for me , now is watching from the other side together with my parents and friends and family members that passed away in the last years .

CREDIT PHOTO : INSTITUTUL CULTURAL ROMAN , ULTIMI RAPSOZI ZAIM PETRU

Was a unique way of looking at life since early childhood, it was completely different , we was so well in tune with nature and with our community, our escape was the mountains, full of mystery , will animals – wolfs bears, venous vipers, clean streams with rich waters, wild fruits and mushrooms from which we was making a living, that was the simple life, or our escapes at the river Moldova to catch small fish called ”boisti” to cook them on our made up barbecue. We was very clever cutting my mom net curtains and stealing her pots to catch fish, we always got caught and put to clean the house make it pristine as a punishment . It was great times.

In 2006 Mother passed away and i was left in charge as head of the family to look after my younger two sisters and to make sure everyone else is kept in check.

Time always did went very quick and as I Look back so many great memories , some painful but no matter what we did keep going. We was made that way to just keep going no matter what , and deal with things as they came our way.

My love for Mother Earth led me to start study more in depth Forestry, Fauna , Flora , wild animals, hunting and in  2006 I did graduate The Bucovina College of Forestry as forestry technician, and at that time I was the only ever mother with two young children that had graduated the College, and that was possible with the support of my Teacher Jaluba Petru and My mother who did see me for who I was and never lost faith in me giving me their unconditional support. through my hard times as a single mother .  As I type   I am looking back how important was their  support then for where I am now.

Mother always said :

”Respect the teachers no matter how they are as they are the second parents you have going through life”, and she was right .

In 2011 one of my sisters got me a one way ticket to come to Ireland , looking back I’m smiling, how it all played.

I went to many countries in Europe until then for short periods to work, trade, but raising 3 children wasn’t easy so I had to make the step, the hardest decision to leave my kids in Romania to be looked after while I was here working 7 days a week to be able to send everything they need to be educated and raised , looking back was the hardest thing I ever did, I didn’t had a choice , that was the choice.

I thought I will be here just for 1or 2 years , clear my debts and buy a home , but plans didn’t work that way, Universe had other plans, and went ahead with it.

As the years went on, being reunited with my children after 3 years -4 years I thought I found peace, but was just the start of  a new journey, The Healing journey for me and my children , what a journey.

I enjoyed keeping in touch with people back home and supporting them but I’ve seen it need it more than I was doing , then I decided to change things and start getting educated into health area to be able to help my own people home, but first my children.

It all led to start my journey to into the Complementary  Therapies, outdoor leaders , personal trainer and all the courses to get the skills and the knowledge I thought I need it to get educated.

I didn’t even knew properly what kinesiology was, I booked Touch for Health which was 4 weekends training and I thought that’s it, but well things don’t work like that.

That was the start of it.

Started with Touch for Health and at the same time I was working as a volunteer with Willie Whelan , at The Adventure Project Ireland   which put me in the front line working with children from North Inner City Dublin 5 Lamps area and people in recovery from addiction and Crime diversion programs. Was a huge lesson and life experience and my mind never actually stopped eager to learn more and see how things can be addressed from so many different angles.

I felt I’m like an octopus- working , looking after family , training jiu-jitsu, doing various courses in kinesiology, nutrition, personal training, personal development, running marathons by myself and with my kids, volunteer in community  gardens, in kids schools projects, cycling every day,   and I thought I  run myself thin, and I did in fairness until 2021 in April when a life changing accident which led to my life to stop in one place happened.

Until then I took every single opportunity to try to live and enjoy life but always felt I missed something.

That moment in particular, brought a lost of trauma to surface, suffered memory loss, PTSD, nightmares, anxiety, severed my relationships with my kids more deep than they were and i had to start from zero again like a small kid with baby steps.

At the suggestion of Willie I enrolled into college , as discipline and schedule was need it to be able to move on, the Shackelton course, from which i graduated in 2023 as Outdoor Leader, and  while I was in recovery and rehab, with:

John Prendergast MA  Psychotherapy for my PTSD, anxiety, nightmares and how to prevent events from happening as I was constantly in fear, I  still remember the day I rang him saying – I did hit the rock bottom, and I need help, that was very hard to do as  I never asked for help, my Pride , I was always offering help and it took me 1 month to make the call, a month of nightmares, anxiety living in hell.

Don Wardo from Irish Strength Institute dry needling and strength and conditioning, Richard Dodd IFSC Physiotherapist dry needling, consultancy, and physical support , Sports Surgery Clinic  and a whole team of Consultants from Mater Private to whom I am very grateful for all their amazing work and support.

After my physical abilities and recovery was on the line,  realised that more deeper issues was coming to surface – the transgenerational trauma which I couldn’t express , understand or make sense of it.

My Kinesiology teacher was great support Ger Casey and when I did explain what happened she got back to me suggesting that I should do Sylvia course as she will do it online, and so I did. Ger was  a great support at that time for which I am very grateful.

In 2021, 27th of August I started Transforming DNA Memories with Sylvia Marina, seen her in 2012 in a vision while in Solid Rock Church Dublin, it was great to finally meet her in physical form.

That day  I was able yo talk about everyone on the zoom as I’ve seen them in my visions but I didn’t knew who I was, I was lost.

As the day went it all  started to make sense , all the sleepless nights , all the emotions , overwhelming , and it was a simple fix to it – bringing the brain at a certain wave to clear and heal, while I was healing myself everyone was healing with me.

I love Sylvia work and last year, in 2024 to become a facilitator of her work . It had a huge impact on my recovery, it did help me and my family to heal, not just my children that  I’ve seen positive changes,  but even on my sisters too and we  continue in our journey and since then it never stopped.

After few years of rehab, recovery and living the physical, emotional trauma led to unique combination of experiences and expertise on how people who are passing through similar incidents can live again and heal and feel alive.

I remember Richard Dodd saying one day in the clinic, when I asked him:

How can I explain to my kids I’m not ok?

He Looked at me and said:

Your the worst case of Concussion that I ever seen , you looked like the soul left the body, there was no light in your eyes.

And he took the time to put together videos for my kids to look at and understand as they seen I lost my mind I couldn’t remember things, asking the same question 10 times , forgetting to eat , wash myself or who they were.

It didn’t make sense then, It took months  seeing the same thing My body  sitting on my backpack and Me outside the body asking shouting for help, it was simple, yet   soul left the body and came back that why was so hard to recover, I was feeling pains I never was able to explain, I was empty inside and couldn’t explain.

That was the second experience of that kind in my life.

I think sometimes, Universe gives us a knock in the head to wake up, to see that life is much more than running desperately to make money, that cherishing moments with our loved ones is more important than all material things, and it seems I was struggling to slow down, I wasn’t able to say no, until Universe said : Stop !

And so it happened .

Trained with leading specialists in different fields, learned from the best, and accessed my Ancestral Wisdom to go on my own path which led to today.

I combined everything I learned in simple to use protocols to manage trauma at all levels and to thrive and be successful .

Thank to the continues support of my children  and to each and every specialist who gave 110 support, throughout my recovery period   I made full recovery and I am able to provide Top quality trauma recovery for people who unfortunately are going through similar situations .

Thank your for Reading, and i  hope it will help someone understand that they are not alone, and asking for help , the right people will come into their path .

If you don’t ask you won’t receive help.

 

CARMEN JITARIUC

Principal and Director halcyon Health and Education Services Eire.

PS: Stay tunned as soon I will release my own life story book, for everyone who might need to look outside the box and learn from my experience not needing to live it themselves.